This is not the end of me, this is the beginning 🎤

I believe. In every moment and every success and every challenge. And every opportunity to transcend negativity and challenges into love and purpose.

I am constantly striving and accomplishing and outshining and over achieving. But with EMAR I have constant, unrelenting challenges and negativity. It builds up every single day and I take it on and continue to push forward and take on all the work of those who drop off. My heart sinks every time someone commits to help and drags it out and then bails out. But I only sink for a moment, before I take it on and try something different or do it myself. And the positive OUTSHINES the negative.

I believe that the darkness reminds us where light can be.

I am exhausted, I am tired and I am sad. But I keep going. And then I am happy again almost immediately because I cannot stop, and moving forward gives me hope and strength and happiness. Tonight I sit with Sweetie cuddled up against me and I heard this song. A love song for EMAR.

I Believe

Song by Christina Perry

I believe if I knew where I was going I’d lose my way I believe that the words that he told you are not your grave I know that we are not the weight of all our memories I believe in the things that I am afraid to say

Hold on, hold on

I believe in the lost possibilities you can see And I believe that the darkness reminds us where light can be I know that your heart is still beating, beating, darling I believe that you fell so you would land next to me 'Cause I have been where you are before And I have felt the pain of losing who you are And I have died so many times, but I am still alive I believe that tomorrow is stronger than yesterday And I believe that your head is the only thing in your way I wish that you could see your scars turn into beauty I believe that today it’s okay to be not okay

Hold on, hold on

'Cause I have been where you are before And I have felt the pain of losing who you are And I have died so many times, but I am still alive This is not the end of me, this is the beginning

This is not the end of me, this is the beginning (Hold on) This is not the end of me, this is the beginning